Peace

At last, things are okay. I hope they stay like this. Peace for a short while, would be better than no peace at all.

I suddenly have waves of nostalgia for my primary school days. Days when you could be truly proud of your education and Alma Mater.

Alma Mater floreat,
Quae nos educavit;
Alma Mater floreat,
Quae nos educavit;
Caros et commilitones,
Dissitas in regiones
Sparsos, congregavit
Sparsos, congregavit

-from Gaudeamus Igitur

To War Again.

School's not okay. Some bugger vandalised the back wall of the class with homosexual references to yours truly, the blogmaster of this blog.

Now it's serious. And just when things were getting better.

I never did anything to anyone. My existence is their target, then. Sometimes I wonder if I deserve it, then I remember that God is with me.

He will never fail me.

He's going to pull me through this war.

Gott mit uns.

A random quiz

I don't know why I even bother, but I feel the need to get people to know me a bit better.

1) Full Name: Read the profile.
2) Male/Female:Male
3) Were you named after anyone?:No.
4) Does your name mean anything?:Knows God's grace.
5) Nick Name(s):None
6) What do you think you look like:Me.
7) Date Of Birth:No. I protest. I must not divulge.
8) Place of Birth and Current Location:Singapore
9) Nationality:Singaporean
10) Astrology Sign:I don't bother.
11) Chinese Astrology Sign:I don't bother either.
12) Religion:Christianity
13) Whats your favorite smell?:Esplanade Air-con :)
14) Political Position?:Moderate-Conservative
15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?:Tea
16) Hair + Eye colour:black, brown
17) Do you look like anyone famous?:No.
18) What do you look like?: Me. God made us all unique. Period.
19) Any unusual talents?: I memorised the British rifle drill manual. Ich spreche Deutsch.
20) Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?:Left.
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?:I'm straight.
22) What do you do for a living?:Mugging and ensuring my survival in this cruel world.
23) What do you do for fun?:Exercise.
24) What are your favorite art materials to work with?:Pencil
25) What kind of materials would you like to work with?:I dunno.
26) Have you met your grandparents?:Yes.
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend:I wish.
28) Crush: Loose talk costs lives! Don't mention the ***!!!
29) What celebrity would you date if you could?: Never.
30) Current worries?:A lot.
31) Favorite online Guy/Girl(s):People I tag.
32) Favorite place to be?:Esplanade. Or somewhere downtown.
33) Least favorite place to be?:School or GHQ.
34) Do you burn or tan?:Burn.
35) Ever break a bone?:No.
36) What is your favorite cereal?:I don't eat cereal.
37) You cry with: I don't cry (although I would like to sometimes)
38) Any sisters:Yes.
39) Any brothers:No.
40) Any pets:No.
41) An Illness:Maybe mental, but then again, there is no proper diagnosis.
42) A Pager:No.
43) A Personal phone line:No.
44) A Cell phone:Yes.
45) A visible birthmark:No.
46) A Pool or hot tub:Neither.
47) A Car:No.
48) Personality: Introverted, Submissive (leads when needed and always willing to), Stiff upper lip.
49) Driving:No. I'd rather fly.
50) Your clothing style:Formal English.
51) Room:Alright.
52) What’s missing: My sanity.
53) School:Loose talk costs lives! Must not talk about ***
54) Bed:Made ready.
55) Relationship with your parent(s):Alright.
56) Do You believe in yourself:No.
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?:No.
58) Consider yourself a good listener:Passable.
59) Have a future dream that you would like to share?: I'd love to fly a jet that would take me to the edge of space and back. (Think X-15) Any better, I would like to go into space. Any worse, I'd rather muck around Singapore airspace. At least I'd be free of the reins of earth.
60) Get Along with your parents:Alright.
61) Save your e-mail conversations:No.
62) Pray:Everyday.
63) Believe in reincarnation:No.
64) Brush your teeth twice a day?:Yes.
65)Like to talk on the phone:No.
66) Like to eat?:Yes.
67) Like to exercise?:12 rounds, quick, 70Ibs, Lat Pull-Down, LOS!
68) Like to watch sports?:Never had the time.
69) Sing in the car?: Ich nicht habe einem Auto!
70) What is a dream that you have all the time?:Walking in some futuristic city.
71) Dream in color:Yes.
72) Do you have nightmares?:All the time.
73) Sleep with a stuffed animal:No.
74) Right next to you:Books.
75) On your favorite coffee cup?:I don't drink coffee.
76) On your mouse pad:Don't have one.
77) Your favorite flavor of gum?: I'm not one for gum.
78) Your brand of deodorant?:I don't use it. I never need to. Really.
79) Your dream honeymoon spot:The white cliffs of Dover...
80) Your dream husband/wife:Loves the Lord, can appreciate me for who I am. As if that would ever happen.
81) Hiding in your closet?:Souvenirs from travels.
82) Under your bed:Dust.
83) The name of one of your closest/best friends?:Gahh...I don't want to show favouritism.
84) Your bad time of the day:Afternoon.
85) Your worst fear(s): people turning their backs on me. Happens.
86) What's the weather like:Alright.
87) Your favorite time of year?:Holidays.
88) Your favorite holiday?:Christmas.
89) A material weakness?:Books?
90) The weirdest food or drink that you like:I'm pretty straight on this one.
91) At the top of your "to-do list"?:QT and time with God. Then mug. mug. mug.
92) The hardest thing about growing up: Realising that the longer you live, your bucket-kicking chances just got bally higher.
93) A pet peeve?:Nah.
94) Your scariest moment: Not many, can't remember.
95) Your attitude about love?: God loves me. I doubt the rest do, sometimes.
96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: Loose talk costs lives! Don't...
97) The worst feeling in the world:Losing your hard work.
98) The best feeling in the world:Being loved.
99) Who sent this to you?:Ripped from Gillian's blog.
100) Tag 6 people:Not bally likely.

Must return to mugging A Maths.

I feel young again.

I remember when I was P6, getting 70 to 80 marks out of 100 in a PSLE practice paper warranted a 'See Me' mark on the paper, as well as compulsory remedial and the like.

Recently my results are getting really good, considering my results used to be around 60 to 70%.

Chinese: (I forgot but above 80%)
Lit: 88%
Chem: 73%

and full marks for History Portfolio. Praise God!

I suddenly feel very young. Very young indeed.

In Short...

On Friday, went for D-Pillar meeting. Finally, I can buckle down and get working somewhere in BPYM.

I also went for the Auto Defib course at the Police Academy.

2 more weeks till end of CMTs.

Life seems to be easing up a bit. I just hope this isn't the calm before the storm.

Encouragement

It always amazes me when someone encourages me, and it always uplifts me when someone tells me he or she is thankful for something I have done.

I am very sure this is the same for most people I know.

Yet it is amazing because I don't expect it, and after a while I feel terribly depressed after I receive a note of encouragement.

Perhaps it's the fault of my mindset. I always have been thinking - NEVER expect thanks from anyone, NEITHER should you expect any support, backing or encouragement. Encourage others but don't expect reciprocation.

Whatever the reason, its only God who can help me in such times where the black dog takes over.

(Oh yes, you realise that I never talk about school nowadays? It could be a trap, and people might use those words against me, so might as well shut my bally mouth about it. Careless talk costs lives... I let a few things loose once and I think I got away with it. I should be more careful.)

Online again.

Well, I haven't been blogging a lot recently, but well, I suppose since no one reads it anyway, it wouldn't do any harm.

Well yesterday, I was watching an episode of Dad's Army and it showed this scene where ARP Warden Hodges was miraculously unhurt when a bomb nearly got him. After that, he was shown talking to the vicar about how thankful he was and how he resolved to be a better person after that.

It got me thinking. God is merciful, and he shows this mercy throughout our lives. How often have we not been thankful to God for His mercy? Do we respond to His mercy?

"Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness."
Lamentations 3: 22-23